Kellie Maloney attempted suicide after doubting her transition.
The ‘Celebrity Big Brother’ star – who was known as Frank Maloney before transitioning to become a woman – admits there was one point where she nearly took her own life because she felt so "lonely and empty".
She said: "I was wondering, ‘How could Frank do all these things and get people in his life while Kellie – who is a nicer person – can’t have anyone in her life and will never meet anyone to share her life with. So I just thought, I don’t want to live this lonely life any more. I had a good life, but I just felt empty, and when you’re lying in a room, it’s dark, you’re flicking through photos on a telephone, you’re quite drunk then suddenly you think there’s an easy way out. I don’t even know what tablets I was taking – anything I could find. I actually even took some painkillers which were for my dogs."
And the 66-year-old former boxing promoter admits there was a stage where she felt she had "really messed up" her life.
Speaking to The Sun newspaper’s Bizarre column, she added: "I was going through three bottles of wine a night. One evening it just all got too much. I went to a local restaurant and sat there crying. I felt like I’d really messed up my whole life, and even worse my daughters’ lives …
"I woke in the night and all I could do was cry. I thought, ‘What have I done? I’ve got nothing in my life any more.’ By this time Frank has gone. I’ve lost that, but it was regret over all of the sacrifices that had come with it … I lay there that night and I was looking at pictures of Frank – I still have some on my phone. And I was looking at pictures of Kellie. I could see Kellie had a smile which Frank never had, but for some reason there was still something missing."
Kellie Maloney attempted suicide after transition struggle
