Thomas Cohen was constantly "scared" throughout his marriage to Peaches Geldof.
The singer/songwriter was left devastated when the late model died of an accidental heroin overdose aged 25 in April 2014, and admits her problems with addiction only heightened the fear he had of being in live.
He said: "I think any time you love someone, you’re slightly scared of it.
"But when they have addiction issues and the border of life and death is so constant and close and intertwined throughout the whole thing, it’s heightened. But that doesn’t take away from any of the experience or relationship."
But the former S.C.U.M. frontman insists he doesn’t feel the same fear with his and Peaches’ children, Astala, three, and two-year-old Phaedra.
When asked if he has the same terror of loving someone when it comes to his children, he added: "Nooooooo, they’re not scary! I think with kids, I just knew that I was very ready to love something the way you love a child."
To combat his grief, Thomas penned "brutally honest" track ‘Country Home’ about seeing Peaches’ lifeless body in the hope it would "transform the pain" of her death.
He told the Guardian newspaper: "I just wanted … God, no, it was the last thing I wanted to do, but I needed to somehow transform that pain.
"There’s not much poetry to it. It’s just brutally honest. But once I’d finished the song, it was mixed and we rehearsed it a few times, it just felt like a song. I’m not really reliving something every time I hear it."
Despite being tough to write, the musician – insists the emotional track "doesn’t hurt" to perform.
He added: "It feels good to do every time. It comes from a place of hurt, but it certainly doesn’t hurt to sing it.
"That’s the joyful thing about music, a lot of music, even certain famous huge pop songs that are quite bad, come from that place."
Thomas Cohen’s love fears
