Nikki Bella suffered from "anxiety" when she ended her relationship with John Cena, because of their differing stances on children.
The 34-year-old professional wrestler broke off her engagement to fellow wrestler John last month, just weeks before they were due to tie the knot, and in Sunday’s (27.05.18) episode of ‘Total Bellas’ – the reality show in which Nikki stars with her twin sister Brie – she reveals her desire to break up stemmed from John’s reluctancy to have children.
Speaking to John, 41, on the show, Nikki said: "I just know deep down I want a baby … I want to be a mom. I feel like I can’t live the rest of my life not having one.
"I don’t even know how to start except, um, I guess just like for some reason since Birdie’s been born and I’ve spent a lot of time with Birdie, it’s just brought up these feelings of really wanting to be a mom. I don’t know if I would regret it later on in life if I wasn’t.
"I love you so much and I feel that has always been worth sacrificing for. I think just because we’re getting married and everything is so permanent. Not that it has made me feel suffocated, but it’s given me a bit of anxiety knowing that okay, the day 5/5 comes, like, that’s it. The mom thing is done."
The ‘Blockers’ star had been anticipating Nikki’s comments, and told her he wasn’t sure they should "go through" with their plans to marry.
He said: "I would never force you to not be a mom. I really want to say it’s a surprise, but I even told you so many times it would happen. I’m not sure we should go through with this."
The scenes come after John revealed shortly after their break-up that he would "love" to be the father of Nikki’s children, despite his firm decision not to have children prior to their split.
Meanwhile, Nikki previously insisted she is hopeful that she can "work it out" with John and they can get back together one day once she has "found" herself.
She shared: "John is such an amazing man. He really is the love of my life. I truly hope one day that we can work it out and get back together. I think there is hope … I just want us both to live the rest of our lives happy. Hopefully that’s together, maybe it’s not. Right now I’m just focusing on me. I think I kind of lost me and now I want to find myself."
Nikki Bella was ‘anxious’ about starting a family before ending relationship
