Former ‘Love Island’ contestant Malin Andersson considered taking her own life when her baby was taken seriously ill after being born earlier this year.
The reality TV star was left devastated when her daughter Consy died in January just weeks after she was born seven weeks prematurely and she has now admitted that when her tot was in the newborn intensive care unit (NICU) at London’s Great Ormond Street Hospital she started "slowly collecting tablets" because if her child was going to die then she didn’t want to live either.
In an interview with Kate Thornton on the Yahoo podcast White Wine Question Time, she admitted: "[When Consy was in ICU] I was too scared to touch her, because of the wires and everything. I was slowly collecting tablets … because I was thinking, ‘If she’s going to go, f**k, I’m going too. Because what else have I got to live for here? I haven’t got a family to go back to.’ "
In the wake of her baby daughter’s death, Malin – who had Consy with her ex-boyfriend Tom Kemp – tried to self-medicate with alcohol to cope with her all-consuming grief and she couldn’t face speaking to anybody.
She said: "When she passed away, I locked myself away for about three weeks. I just drank wine every night, I didn’t want to speak to anybody."
During that awful time, Josie Gibson reached out to Malin to try and offer her some comfort and she gathered a host of video messages of support from the likes of Stevo The Madman, Kym Marsh, Charlotte Crosby, Ferne McCann and others to send to her and Malin admits that support helped her greatly.
She said: "There were just video messages from random people, celebrities, just offering words of courage, support. And they actually made such a difference. Josie was just giving me support that was very much needed at the time. And no one else really knew what to say to me. But she just put herself out there."
Josie and Malin had struck up a friendship over Instagram as they were both pregnant at the same time and the former ‘Big Brother’ winner – who gave birth to son Reggie in September last year – admits she wept so many tears of sadness for Malin’s loss.
Speaking to Malin on the podcast, Josie said: "I cried so much for you. Because we were sharing our stories the whole way through, and then … I didn’t sleep for two nights. I was so upset for you."
Malin Andersson contemplated suicide when late baby was taken ill
