Ellie Goulding thinks music saved her life.
The 31-year-old singer – who has battled with panic attacks in the past – doesn’t know if she’d "be here today" if she didn’t have her talent because she’s always turned to it when the going gets tough as she found it to be a form of therapy for her nerves.
Speaking to The Sun newspaper, she said: "From a very young age music was absolutely everything to me. It was the ultimate companion – the strongest remedy for any kind of pain or sadness. Often it was the only way I’d be able to say what I wanted to say or describe how I was feeling . . . so to not have it in my life, I don’t even know if I’d be with you guys today."
Ellie previously said her anxiety peaked when she shot into the limelight in 2010.
She said: "My life completely changed when my career started taking off in 2010. I was thrilled, of course – sharing my music with the world was a dream I’d been working toward for years -but it was a lot all at once.
"Suddenly, I was living alone in London and everything was happening so fast.
"I started having panic attacks, and the scariest part was it could be triggered by anything. I used to cover my face with a pillow whenever I had to walk outside from the car to the studio. My new life as a pop star certainly wasn’t as glamorous as all my friends from home thought.
"Secretly, I was really struggling physically and emotionally. I think part of what sparked my panic attacks was not feeling confident enough to believe in myself – I was scared I wasn’t as good of a singer as everyone thought I was. And as the stakes grew, I was afraid of letting everyone, including myself, down."
Ellie Goulding: Music saved my life
