Ricki Lake never thought she’d feel happy again after the death of her ex-husband Christian Evans.
The television presenter was devastated when Christian tragically took his own life at the age of 45 in 2017 following a battle with bipolar disorder and she admits the "true depression" after his untimely passing left her feeling unable to get out of bed.
She said: "It’s a miracle, but I truly feel on the other side of it. For a long time, I didn’t think I’d ever feel happy again … I got to experience true depression. There were days when I couldn’t get out of bed, and that is a very scary place to be.
"I’m such a positive person, and to not feel like that was paralysing … I will mourn the loss of Christian’s beautiful soul every day of my life. But human beings are resilient. And life is precious."
The 50-year-old actress – who was married to Christian until 2015 – wishes she could have saved him but she knew she couldn’t.
She told People magazine: "It was like living with Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I wanted to save him, but I couldn’t. I was still supporting him, financially and emotionally."
At the time of his death, Ricki took to Instagram to announce his passing after a "life-long struggle with bipolar disorder" and paid a glowing tribute to him.
She wrote: "It is with a heavy heart that I share that my beloved soulmate, Christian Evans has passed. The world didn’t understand this man, but I did. He succumbed to his life long struggle with bipolar disorder. For anyone who has ever lost a family member or friend to mental illness, my heart goes out to you. I am a greater person for having known him and spent the past 6 and a half years of my life with him. He was a man of love and what mends my broken heart today is knowing that he is finally at peace and his spirit is free. Rest in peace, my love (sic)"
Ricki Lake thought she’d never be happy again after ex-husband’s death
