Leah Bracknell is feeling "better and better" each day in her fight against lung cancer.
The former ‘Emmerdale’ star is on the up after she started a medical trial to try to defeat the disease after being rejected for two other experimental attempts, and she feels "blessed" that her condition appears to have improved.
She said: "Did it work? Am I cured? I don’t know, but all I can say is that each day, little by little I feel better and better. I feel blessed.
"Next week a scan will tell me the status of the cancer: same, better or worse? The result will determine whether or not I am allowed to continue on the trial.
"So, now I must consciously chose not to succumb to what we like to call scanxiety – the creeping terror of what ifs. (sic)"
Leah – who played Zoe Tate in the ITV soap – admitted that just a few months ago she was going through a "dark" and "difficult time" with no positive outlook in sight.
Writing on her blog, ‘Something Beginning with C’, she added: "Life was proving a wee bit challenging to say the least both physically and emotionally. Actually, who am I trying to kid? It was a dark time. A difficult time. It seemed as if the way forward was closing.
"Maybe I would find a trial. Maybe. Regrettably though, from their perspective, and more crucially mine, our journey together looked like it could be drawing to an end soon.
"It took a while for the significance of the situation to truly sink in. IS THAT IT???
"Do I just go home and WAIT …? To DIE …….? (sic)"
In June, Leah – who was diagnosed with the disease in October 2016 – wrote a harrowing account of her lung cancer treatment, in which she reflected on having fluid drained from her lungs.
She wrote: "The lungs, according to Chinese medicine represent grief, and as the sea of sickness seeps from my body drop by drop I feel the release of decades of grief held vice-close, of sadness, of fear, of shame, of guilt, of secrets, of abuse, of self blame, wrong choices, missed opportunities, isolation and silence."
Leah Bracknell feeling ‘better and better’ in bid to beat cancer
